Monday, October 5, 2015

Why are you still single?

Why are you still single?

Why am I still single? Well, I went on a couple of different dates this weekend, and I will try to do a quick recap as unbiased as possible to help give a good response to this all-too-common question. Pay attention because the two different names involved could get confusing. *I am not writing this because I take any of it really seriously.  I am not writing this to get back at anyone.  I am writing this partly as a satire and partly as a prime example of why I am still single.*

Thursday night I went out with a guy who I will call Ted for the sake of anonymity.  I thought Ted was cute.  He had told my friend to give me his number because he thought the same.  I asked if he wanted to go dancing that night, and he said yes.  He picked me up and we drove out to the venue. He mentioned the word date, and I kind of felt bad because I had already invited another friend to go without realizing it was a date.  The three of us hung out that night for a while, and then I left with Ted and drove back to my place. We talked for a couple of hours at the park by my house.  We kissed for all of about 10 seconds tops right before he left.  I got a text that night saying it was hands down the best first date he had ever been on.

Friday I had a wedding I was shooting until around 9:30pm.  Ted had asked earlier when I'd be done, so I texted him once I had left.  Once I was home I told him I was pretty tired, but he was welcome to stop by after his party if he wanted to. He said of course and came on by about twenty minutes later.  He stayed for a couple of hours, and I was super tired so I hinted that I wanted to go to bed.  Ted left and texted me a nice follow-up text saying thanks for letting him come over and that I was fun to be around.  He asked what I was doing the next night, and I let him know I had a date.

Saturday night I had a date with someone I will refer to as John.  Before I left on the date, however, I got a text from Ted saying he knew I was busy, but he would like to take me out on Tuesday if I didn't have anything going on.  Apparently John and Ted are buddies.  John told Ted he was taking me on a date earlier that day without realizing Ted had already been talking to me. I had a great time with John.  I decided to text Ted back after my date with John and say "sorry, but I'm just not feeling the same way."

Sunday night John wanted to do something again.  I went over to spend some time with him, and Ted gets brought up.  Apparently John texted Ted to make sure the bromance was still in tact and that he didn't mean to step on any toes or break the 'bro code'.  Ted responds back that he didn't even know Thursday was a date, and I must have just thought that it was.  He tells John to go for it because I had been the one who asked for his number in the first place so it wasn't a big deal.  He even had the nerve to tell John that we had basically made out and then he peaced out.

Are you kidding me??

THIS is why I am still single.

Saturday, September 19, 2015

one man's story

Shortly after posting my latest post, "body-shaming, bullying, and boys", I had someone write me and share these thoughts:

"Hey Kylee! I couldn't sleep either, but I read your blog post, and I really liked it! I thought I would share a personal experience I had related to what you were talking about. I can really feel for the boy you talked about. When I was a kid, I was very overweight. My Dad and brothers would make fun of me all of the time.  My Dad would often call me "dough boy" (The Pillsbury Dough Boy). I remember being very embarrassed and self-conscious.  I hated going swimming. I'd always leave my shirt on in the pool because I was embarrassed of my body. People would then make fun of me for leaving my shirt on. While these are all terrible things to say to a young boy, it's actually what inspired me to eat healthy and get into shape.  I don't think I would have ever had the motivation or desire to lose weight and get into a healthy lifestyle if I didn't have any fuel for the fire. However, that comes with a price.  I am still, to this day, extremely self-conscious about my body image. I am very hard on myself about the way I look, and most of it is due to me thinking that girls won't like me unless I am extremely fit and muscular. I am never satisfied and am constantly trying to push myself further. While I think it's a good thing to have goals such as these, it's also a bad thing because I have become somewhat obsessed and am constantly being hard on myself. Anyways, I just thought I would share that! Great post. I really liked it!"

I don't think parents realize the mark their comments can potentially leave behind.  I am sure those parents in the store from my last post simply thought the comments were positive criticism or "tough love" to help their boy become "healthy".  While the comment to lose weight and accept the reality of the situation may not end up affecting that young boy in the long-run, is it worth the risk?  I've heard many other similar stories just like the one I shared above.

Yes, the comments themselves are hurtful. I could clearly see the look of shame on the young boy's face that one day at the store. The boy from the above story also became very embarrassed after being teased and ridiculed about his body. While these comments are hurtful, they do not even begin to touch the negative, long-term body image issues they often create.  I personally know the man who sent me the above story.  He is not someone you would look at and think he had such a negative self body image.  It's shocking to hear about his constant struggle of never being satisfied with the way his body looks. I never would have guessed due to the fact that, in my opinion, he is extremely fit and muscular. While some of you may not see the severity of this because perhaps you think it's a good thing to always be pushing yourself further, I disagree.  I hope the man above can one day be accepting of his body as it currently is.  I do not see a problem with setting goals of what you would like to achieve. I do not see a problem with wanting to push yourself.  The constant self-doubt and obsessive thoughts, however, are the problem, whether people see it that way or not.

So again, I leave you with: think twice, or maybe even five times, about what you say before you say say it.  And to the boys in both stories: you are much more than your body.  Let's focus on what else we all contribute to society besides the way our bodies look.

Friday, September 18, 2015

body-shaming, bullying, and boys.

body-shaming, bullying, and boys.

I don't really know where to begin with this post.  I feel like the topic gets brought up over and over again, but it's such a prevalent problem that will not go away. Please ignore my grammar and punctuation mistakes: you are forewarned.

I often write little notes in my phone. These notes could be an idea for a post, lyrics for a song I'll probably never write, or an experience that stands out to me.

On July 17, 2015 at 12:17PM, I wrote this short excerpt:
"Two seemingly nice, kind parents took their 11 or 12 year old boy school shopping at Plato's closet in Provo, Utah.  The boy began trying on pants and shorts that his mom and dad would bring him.  He came out with one of the options and told his dad that they were too tight. His dad quickly responded by saying, "Well, it looks like you need to lose some weight then."  I could see the look of shame and embarrassment fill the young boy's face. His dad continued to explain, "I'm just being real about the situation."

My heart broke for this barely-above-average-sized young boy going into junior high without even his parents approval of his weight and appearance.  Instead of encouraging his son to try on a different size, this father just left his son with a blanket statement: you need to lose weight.

I do not think these parents intentionally meant their son any harm. I'd like to believe they did not realize the amount of shame they most likely added to this boy's body image.  Junior high is hard enough as it is; everyone is trying to figure out the kind of person they want to be and the kind of image they want to present themselves with.  In my opinion, junior high is when a person is at their personal peak of insecurity. Or at least when your insecurities really spike for the first time.  Everyone cares what you look like, what you wear, and who you hang out with.  Bullying is an everyday thing around the halls of school.  Growing up, I remember seeing people snickered at or teased just about every day. It's a lot of pressure.  A lot of the mean comments revolved around a person's appearance and more specifically, their weight.

I can specially remember having guy-friends throughout school who were teased for their bodies.  Whether they were under or over-weight, they were often put on the chopping block of criticism.  For some reason, people seem to think guys aren't as affected by these cruel comments.  I'm not sure why this line of thinking exists.  Males are not exempt from feeling insecure.  Their insecurities get layered on piece by piece just like females do.  People would be shocked if they knew the real percentage of men with significant body-image issues.

Please think twice before you comment on another person's body: male or female.  Let's stop this overly-body-conscious way of thinking.

Sunday, October 12, 2014

A Warrior's Heart

"A heart is a funny thing, it can break, it can beat a little faster. But the most important thing it can do is heal; and if you follow it, it will lead you anywhere you need to go."

"You think you know someone, you have a nice connection, but before they let you in, they gotta let themselves in. They have to learn their own heart."

"Through challenges, he finds strength...

Through courage, he finds love..."

"It isn’t easy watching people you love get hurt, and it’s impossible to replace some things in life that get lost. But in everything I look for in a person: someone who stands up when they are knocked down, can work with a team, and has strength and humility - that can be found through this game. Maybe that’s why lacross, baaga’adowe, is known by another even older name: The Creator’s game. Native Americans believe they play for the pleasure of their Creator. Sometimes I think that’s why we do anything at all."

-Just some of my favorite quotes from the movie A Warrior's Heart.

Sunday, December 30, 2012

Playing Catch Up

October 11th - October 16th:

Arkansas turned out to be one of the funnest trips of my life.  I never wrote about going because things were so rocky once I got home.  I don't know what I really expected when flying into Arkansas, but it was definitely not anything like what I thought. It was beautiful! So pretty. I want to go see more of the midwest just because of that trip. Growing up in central Arizona really shelters you from all of the gorgeous greenery in other parts of the country. Not that Arizona isn't beautiful; it is. And parts of Arizona are prettier than others, but Arkansas just blew me away.  Pictures don't even do it justice.

On December 20, 2012 I GRADUATED from Arizona State University! :)

I can't believe I am done with my undergraduate degree! How crazy is that? It's still pretty surreal to me. The fact that I am not signing up for classes in the spring is somewhat exciting and somewhat scary. I'm supposed to just be working full time now? I don't know if I like the sound of that. I applied for Teach for America and I'll hear back if I got a first initial interview or not on January 17th. Cross your fingers for me! I've heard it's really competitive and difficult to get into! Wish me luck :)

Sunday, October 28, 2012

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